Wednesday, February 18, 2015

Deep - February 2015 - The Things I Didn't Do

The Things I Didn't Do:





I didn't succeed in my attempt to make lava cakes, but the rejects, crumbled, with cherry pie filling and whipped cream, made a tasty Valentine trifle.

My grandmothers and great grandparents didn't stay in England, which enabled me to be born and raised a proud Canadian.

I didn't stay with Interior Design my first year university. However, starting in ID got me to the big city, Winnipeg, and the University of Manitoba, and I still love houses, art, landscaping. I didn't get engaged to my first boyfriend. A world awaited. I didn't stay at university after 4th year when I wanted to. I left to start work. I went back after I had saved enough. I didn't go back to teaching high school after doing my Masters. However, I used teacher training in every other job I had, from bookstore clerk to social caseworker to corrections worker to freelance writer. I didn't leave my first marriage when I should have. I stayed for seven years too long, but It did get me to the North and to Ireland and through the difficult first adult years. I married my second husband after all his ex's warned me off. I learned to be a better listener. I didn't accept my last marriage proposal because I believed it was best for the guy I loved. I miss him, but he's better off, and I know marriage is not meant for me.

I'm with Julie on this. I don't believe we make wrong decisions, just decisions which are leading us to experiences and/or revelations we need at the time. 

Saturday, January 3, 2015

Deep - January 2015

Forest From the Family Tree



The house where I grew up for the first seventeen years of my life was set atop a small hill in southern Manitoba, surrounded by a shelter of poplar (trembling aspen), Manitoba maple, and American elm trees. There were fields on three sides of the house and barnyard and the pasture on the fourth side, with grass, flowers, shrubs such as boxwood, wild rose, and wolf willow, stands of poplar and maple, and with willow around all the low spots were water pooled in the spring. Pussywillows were the first flowers, along with crocuses in the last drifts of snow. Since this beginning, I can never imagine myself living anywhere where I am not surrounded by trees.

However, in thinking symbolically, and about family, the tree I think of, at least for my father and his family, is the oak. Firstly, because the name of our hometown was Oak River. Secondly, because on at least three sides of our family there were Royal Navy ties (and the navy relied on oak for their ships). And thirdly, because of the ancient ties to the oaks of the British Isles, the oak groves, and the pagan rituals associated with what I have learned is called the nemeton, the sacred space in the woods.
 




My mother, on the other hand, grew up in British Columbia. The trees of her childhood were giant Ponderosa pines with their long needles and huge pine cones. The pines along with wild rose bordered the river and pines anchored the hillsides and continue to do so today. Although, at the front door of the ranchhouse there was a giant Manitoba maple. A cutting had been brought with the family when they relocated from the Red River Valley in Manitoba to the Kettle Valley in BC in 1891. They had also transplanted Golden Glow, a flowering bush, which they brought with them from New Brunswick, and a lilac bush which formed the backdrop of every family photo. So Manitoba did not sound completely foreign. Mum's honeymoon journey was the drive from the ranch in Kettle Valley to the farm at Oak River, Manitoba, a distance of some 1700 kilometers, or about 1000 to 1200 miles at the time. As they neared the farmstead Dad pointed. “The house is over there, behind the bluff.” Mum looked at him in disbelief. There was no bluff. The first culture clash. In Manitoba a bluff is a grove of trees. In BC it is a rockface.



Mum loved being outdoors more than indoors. She always had a huge garden. She mowed a huge lawn, tended pansies, petunias, and a bed of tiger lilies. One summer on a fishing trip north towards Riding Mountain National Park, she stopped and dug up a small fir tree from a ditch where it would surely have died and transplanted it to the edge of her lawn. The closest fir trees to our farm were those planted in square lines around the cemetery on the road into town. Like Mum, her transplanted tree survived, it lived, but it was alone, lonely. Homesick. Longing, perhaps. With a feeling of belonging elsewhere, even though the Golden Glow bloomed beneath her window and the lilacs flowered every spring.
 


The first house I bought myself was in Winnipeg's granola-belt West End, where the elm tree branches intertwine over the street, making it seem like the nave of a cathedral. My first house in BC was anchored by a giant weeping willow and the yard was ringed by cedar, fir, birch, wild cherry, holly, and a walnut tree. My present house is in a surround of grand fir with an understory of wild rose, dogwood, honeysuckle, laburnum, box, and plantings of rhododendron and hydrangea. I rely on the generosity of friends every spring for bouquets of lilac within whose perfume, wherever, I always feel at home.

I love this winter shot of the red wheelbarrow in the snow. You can tell that my house too was once living trees. But my favourite tree quotation is from Canadian-born writer/musician Buffy Sainte-Marie - “I was an oak. Now I'm a willow. Now I can bend.”

The poster at the top of this post hangs in a Starbucks in Vancouver. “The deeper the roots, the higher the reach.” “Work closely with farmers.” “Look around the globe.” “I would like to make a difference.” Not to mention, I like coffee.

Prompt # 70 - What I Learned

Prompt # 70 - What I Learned

I'm relatively new to this genealogy thing. Maybe 5 years, and our club disbanded two years ago. I don't belong to Ancestry.com. So I'm still a bit confused between what is considered Family History and what is considered “genealogy” and whether there is a difference. In our group there was a stress on “hard evidence” which meant original documentation of births, baptisms, certificates/licences/degrees, land titles and addresses, marriages, deaths, graveyards and headstones. Add to this, newspaper clippings and photographs. Legends and connections to historic or famous people were treated with skepticism and considered to be myth unless proven by genealogy charts and/or DNA evidence. I have learned that I am much more interested in the history, the stories, than the hard evidence. I have dozens of first cousins I hardly know and I'm not inspired to search for unknown blood relatives. Although I would be curious about finding Woodland relatives in England. I found these Genealogy Prompts of The Book of Me more on the story side, recollections, memories retrieved before they are lost forever. Memories I may not have thought about in years. Often only at funerals.



As a female I have always been aware of the shorter shrift females tend to get in history and family history. We take the pictures and are less often in them. We change our names and are thus more difficult to trace. We inherit china, silverware, and fabric arts but usually not medals or tools. Because of this I choose to focus more on my matrilineal line, mother, grandmothers, great-grandmothers—Bubar, Hayne, Bullen, from New Brunswick, Hampshire, and Surrey. Last year I did a timeline of my Grandma Winifred's life. I have neglected so far my father's maternal lines—Woodland and Vickery from Somerset. I'm not even sure of his grandmother's maiden name. Holkham? Rosa Holkham of Pagham, somewhere near Bognar Regis. Still much to do.

There is so much in the last 69 prompts, I forgot I even wrote it. The next question is, what on earth will I do with it? I realize that often I felt the fruitlessness of not having an audience to write to. Privacy is a concern. If I post a notice on Facebook, is it limited to the other members of the Book of Me group?

Mostly I would like to thank Julie for the inspiration. You forced me to open the trunk and to start unpacking a bit. I think my favourite is the handwriting prompt.